30 minutes ago, I was slightly (ok, really) a mess; but I wasn't about to show it. I had just opened a can of worms, and there were only two ways that it could turn out. The question "What do you mean by that?" was that can of worms. The two ways it could end: I either lose the girl who has recently become my best friend (one of a few, but the only one that I would date), or I get to go to sleep that night knowing that I am dating my best friend. I acted calm, but I was slightly panicked inside. When the subject came up, I thought things were going south, due to them having gone south so many times before.
I will have roughly what I said not in quotations, what she said in quotations, and my thoughts in parentheses.
We started in, and what a quick relief it was. I asked what she thought. "I think you like me." (Awesome, I haven't been obscure) Then I asked what she was thinking. "I like you." (Good... I'm glad the feeling is mutual!) but... "I'm kind of confused." (Uh Oh, where is this going?) Confused about FS stuff? "Yeah." (Phew... wait...) Like, you don't want to cause a scandal? "Yeah." (ok...) So what do you want to do about it? "I don't know." (May I make a suggestion?" Should we just keep it quiet and low key until FS is over? "Yeah." (Good one...) "At least you don't ignore me in public..." (You are incredible, how could I ignore you, I have to keep myself in check just so that I don't give you too much attention; ignore you, psha) Feel better? "Much." (As am I) " I seem to always pick the wrong guys. You're a breath of fresh air." (As are you, but you don't know that; yet) [more talking] "You're the best." (No, you're the best; never forget that).
So, I go to bed happy, and so relieved. I am now dating the most amazing girl I have ever been interested in, and I couldn't be happier.
I know why I am in this handbasket, and I am on the highway to heavenly bliss, not hell. Now the question is, how long do we last. I personally want it to last indefinitely, because I have never been happier. I hope that feeling is mutual as well.
